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Holly Madison Went "Down the Rabbit Hole"
The 14 Worst Things About Hugh Hefner, as Revealed in Holly Madison's New Book
In several passages, she recounts episodes of severe depression while living at the mansion. In one chapter, she shares a moment when she considered committing suicide in a bathtub. She also recounts taking antidepressants, which she later weaned herself off of. Photo: Getty Images. Real love. Disneyland trip sabotage.
After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide. In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself. With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.
Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
Though they publicly denied it, all girlfriends were expected to participate in Hef's bizarre bedtime group sex ritual. Hef would take photos of his girlfriends and him every night before they went out, then have them delivered to each girlfriend's door the next morning. The photos "only amplified the massive pressure to always look perfect and cause the girlfriends to spend hours critiquing their appearances," Madison writes. She also describes Hef as a "hoarder" with "endless desire for momentos. Hef offered Madison a quaalude out of a crumpled tissue on her first night out clubbing with him. When Madison told him she doesn't do drugs, she says Hef replied, "Usually I don't approve of drugs, but you know, in the '70s they used to call these pills 'thigh openers. Among his bizarre set of mansion rules, Madison writes, were that the girlfriends change into identical flannel pajamas before the bedtime routine.